Lie Here

I've been surprised before but nothing like this.
Previous engagements turn up and my heart sinks.
I would like to act as if nothing has happened.
Sooner than later, I must confront whats in front of me.
Why I feel this way, is beyond what I think.
What do I want? What do I miss?
Today changes, along with my life.
The sharpest knife cut straight through my mind.
I lie here bleeding, with no one to care or to explain why?

Why? I may not ever know...

I'm here now but for how long? I'll never know, till it's all gone. What I see or I might wish. This may never be what I really want. What I'm here for, I might not ever know...

The Time May Be Different, Just Not This Time

I cannot be what you want me to be
Back then I was a child
Now I've seen and tried different things
I've turned out a bit mild
I wish I could remind you, of how I once was
But those times have passed through
Changing the way you may perceive me may be difficult
But I'll always continue in my own way
I will try to persuade you, every single day