30 years old today

30 years old today
I don't feel too bold this way
While I'm trying to reconnect
my mind has been so far swept
A lot like my intelect,to remember I would miss
but now, what do I know
I'm still only 30 years old
people may clear the way this time
noticing the change in me
everyone surrounding noticies
the difference about me magnifys their view
Now they know what I'm going to do

You

I love her and there is not a doubt in my mind
For most people I guess, love is hard to find
Growing in my heart, I tend to love you more
Missing your stance, your grace
especially your elegant embrace
It's too hard to figure out
Too hard by far

Is it love?

I could never leave you and I still can't understand why
I should have left you there, without saying goodbye
Strange things that have happened
You would not comprehend
It still isn't over, I just wish you could understand

With You, So True To Me...

I want to be with you and everything I said was true
They would like to say we were too young
Too young to know the difference between the two
We of course both felt misunderstood, by the indifference they assumed of us
Going away though, never felt that wrong before thinking I knew
I wanted you back, wanting to forget the past

But by never seeing you again, it could be the worst thing that happened
Worried about where your at sometimes
I miss those blue eyes always happy to see me
and you were always so true to me...

Lie Here

I've been surprised before but nothing like this.
Previous engagements turn up and my heart sinks.
I would like to act as if nothing has happened.
Sooner than later, I must confront whats in front of me.
Why I feel this way, is beyond what I think.
What do I want? What do I miss?
Today changes, along with my life.
The sharpest knife cut straight through my mind.
I lie here bleeding, with no one to care or to explain why?

Why? I may not ever know...

I'm here now but for how long? I'll never know, till it's all gone. What I see or I might wish. This may never be what I really want. What I'm here for, I might not ever know...

The Time May Be Different, Just Not This Time

I cannot be what you want me to be
Back then I was a child
Now I've seen and tried different things
I've turned out a bit mild
I wish I could remind you, of how I once was
But those times have passed through
Changing the way you may perceive me may be difficult
But I'll always continue in my own way
I will try to persuade you, every single day