Feelings

feeling bad whether or not it works out for some
just whether it works out for me i'm worried about
so many people say this or that
i want to feel bad but i cannot
do people deserve what they get
forget them, there too far
gone?
Or not...
continue to be wondering or the feeling i i miss being un assured...
for another day i will figure this out
figure out precisely, all about my heart

The Way It Should Not Be?

We worship money more than we do each other. We value possessions over love. Decided on looks rather than personality. Concluding our thoughts without knowing for sure. Condemning before knowing the facts. Paranoid and worried over things we cannot control, snobbish acts only worried for ourselves. Imagination lost, along with my sense of humor. Looking past their noses. This shoe will not be on the others foot.
Holidays become excuses and have no meaning anymore.
We can't even die for free?
No purity or willingness to reach out with a helping hand.
The only hope is to pray it doesn't happen to them...
Wars for no reason or there for rhyme.
I've Lost All Faith In Mankind!!!
No more religion, no more pills, no more vaccines or shots.
Need for insurance goes away. No tax nor quota.
Go to bed early at night, don't forget to wake up early?
Look at the stars and play in the fields.
No more words that cannot be said.
Smoke or drink whatever you please.
Watch and listen to whatever you want.
Do as I say not as I do has a whole new meaning now.
I've been screwed over and over until I cannot feel no more.
It must be too late, these wounds, they will not heal.
Condemned to follow these rules and obligations only to die someday.
Alone from my minds tortuous starvation.

Poor

I wish I could write you everyday
But I'm afraid you might expect it
What you may think about me worries me though
As well as what you might say about me, from day to day
All I want is your love
I just want your approval
I want things to be perfect

Wish things were different
I would see you all the time
Without you I'm worthless
I'm guilty and a disgrace
Because I have no money to show

With not a dime to spare
I'm still missing you
Wish I could be there
But with me that is unusual
For me to feel that way is quite rare

30 years old today

30 years old today
I don't feel too bold this way
While I'm trying to reconnect
my mind has been so far swept
A lot like my intelect,to remember I would miss
but now, what do I know
I'm still only 30 years old
people may clear the way this time
noticing the change in me
everyone surrounding noticies
the difference about me magnifys their view
Now they know what I'm going to do

You

I love her and there is not a doubt in my mind
For most people I guess, love is hard to find
Growing in my heart, I tend to love you more
Missing your stance, your grace
especially your elegant embrace
It's too hard to figure out
Too hard by far

Is it love?

I could never leave you and I still can't understand why
I should have left you there, without saying goodbye
Strange things that have happened
You would not comprehend
It still isn't over, I just wish you could understand

With You, So True To Me...

I want to be with you and everything I said was true
They would like to say we were too young
Too young to know the difference between the two
We of course both felt misunderstood, by the indifference they assumed of us
Going away though, never felt that wrong before thinking I knew
I wanted you back, wanting to forget the past

But by never seeing you again, it could be the worst thing that happened
Worried about where your at sometimes
I miss those blue eyes always happy to see me
and you were always so true to me...