Through fields of green
It was the most beautiful thing
The only time I'm at peace
Is When I'm all alone
In a place where I can think
A place I would like to call home

But after a while I feel a bit lonely

Only to remember you
Uplifting in some ways
I do remember then
You knew what to say
So I'd finally come down to listen
Only now to find what I'm missing

Trying not to think.
But I'm trying not to worry.
I only wish, I wasn't in,
so much of a hurry?
Stupid things keep eluding me.
Keeps me from, what I'm meant to be doing.
But I still don't do a thing?
Yet, I still continue to worry?
Never taking care of things,
especially the ones, that mean so much to me?
I wonder if you really care?
Do you even barely think it?
If or when, I'm lonely here.
I would like to be perfect, or at least
I'd like to be close to it.
So I'm trying not to think again?
But apparently,
it's not working.

Okay with the fact that death occurs?
Until he sees his wife, his mind turns.
He realizes he won't see her again.

When they finally lower her in.

Only then does it sink into his mind...

Trying to hold back the tears.
But instead they come, from all the bountiful years.

He thinks then, he shouldn't of held back.
Why did he hold it all, behind of all his fears.

Instead now he thinks, he should have listened to her.

But only now, after all these years.

The Graveyard

Lost in a world where thing's just don't seem right
Does anyone else notice
Anyone else, besides only myself
Corruption and greed, is it ever enough
Poverty and hunger, there's simply too much
Scavengers and thieves, want to pay their dues
Drug addicts and prostitutes, trying to get their fix or simply trying to make it through
Power trippers and racists, who can't change their ways
These are the things I feel, at the end of each day

Sun rays hit my face as I look up in to the sun
Right then I feel like, I must be the only one
Thinking of you and all the joy you bring
When I see your beautiful face I just want to sing
I really don't care about all that bling
You might as well take it all off
For to me, it don't mean a thing
Lips red like roses, your smile so perfect
Your body's got so many curves
I think I could lose my nerves
I'm waiting for you to tell me you love me
But you must be waiting for the same thing

I'm at that point in my life again
Where I don't care where I've been
Don't want to try, I could care less
Things never go my way, my life's a mess
And what do you care you seem contempt
You could never understand my pain
In fact you could care less
So take your good attitude
Take it somewhere else
I need to get through this right now, all by myself
Thanks for trying but you are no help
cause this is the way I feel right now
The only person who can change that is myself.

Moonlight casts shadows on me.

And yet you are so bright?

Standing there motionless, in the moonlight.

Angels sing to you when you are there.
Flying around you with gentle care.

All the while staring blankly at me, almost as if you want to thank me?
Thank me for all my kindness and patience. Not knowing that without you, I could not fake this.

For all your love and power.
You have no idea, how you could devour?
You could get rid of my lust, my need to thrive.
Without you my heart, would not survive.

Wasting my day, wasting away.

It seems I'm not coming back, not coming this way.

Wandering these streets, till I'm hurting my feet.

I realize I need to be around, that's when I begin to come down.

For In my life it's too late, I must steer towards my fate.

I came up with this earlier?
It's a start...
It seems kind of long. #1)?

#1)Breaking me in two, every time you cried.
I feel so hopeless, all the times you lied.

Storms a brewing, deep inside my mind.
Painting a picture, of where I might find the time?

Trying to come up with some sort of equation.

If, just once to get over... My frustration.
There's still no other, no other substitutions.
Not ever will I come up, with a better kind of solution.
So
I wonder are you sailing?
Wherever you might be mailing?

And where else would you rather be?

But farther away from me.

And Further away from my heart.

I've realized you've torn me.
You've torn my heart apart!

Now I've finally found it.
And this won't happen to me again?

So I'm going to latch my heart, and I'm keeping it locked.

Now My heart's been tied. I've knotted it up.

I think I have loss?

But I've certainly loss, quite enough...



#2)Going crazy, need to leave this place.
I'm pathetically waiting. Cannot leave this space.

Always anticipating?
Where I'am, or where I'm at?

Been running around drinking, but what 'am I thinking?
I'm only making it worse!
I assume it's maybe my curse.

So where 'am I going?

Going crazy I think.

My thought's are sinking,

I really couldn't tell you, what 'am I thinking?