Stagnant

What happened to me was extra ordinary? Accompanied by expectations and worry.
Nothing I'm not used to.
but nothing unusual about the request either.
How do I begin? Should I even start and open a continuous strain of pain and suffering?
I'm not sure I'm ready for such a commitment.
Here I go again knowing what is wrong and what is right
missing what used to be, someday I will see.
stagnant again I become...